Paid in Full
by Donna Lowich
Hard as it was to believe, my son, Jeff, was soon to graduate from college! It still is amazing to me that twenty-two years can slip by that quickly. Time slipped by quickly as I watched him grow and mature as he assisted me before, during and after two spinal cord surgeries that left me paralyzed from the shoulders down in December 1985 when he was four-years-old.
One Friday night in March of 2003, my husband, Walter and I called Jeff to see if he was available to meet us at a restaurant for breakfast the next morning. We wanted to surprise him with our plans to buy him a car as a graduation gift!
Jeff had no plans for the morning, so we planned to drive the two hours to his college in Pennsylvania.
Once in the restaurant, all plans were off. I was so excited, I could hardly contain myself. Before we even looked at the menu, I told Jeff that we had decided to buy him a car as a graduation gift. "Now, you know," I warned, "we can't afford a brand-new car, but you're going to need something a little more reliable." Jeff was driving a fifteen-year-old car at the time.
Jeff looked at us, completely shocked. He shook his head, no. "I feel as though I should be buying a car for you guys. You have always done so much for me and have always been there for me. I owe you so much already. But, thanks."
By that time, I was about halfway through my scrambled eggs. I put down my fork and said to him, "Jeff, you have done more for us than we could ever do for you. Do you remember the time you..." and we began to reminisce about times past. The time may have passed, but the memories lingered, fresh and clear.
In November 1998, when Jeff was a junior in high school, I was having more than the usual amount of trouble while working in a large corporation. On this particular day, some people from our department but who were located at another building had come over in the late morning after a meeting. I left the office for a few minutes; when I returned, everyone was gone. They had gone to lunch but had waited for me to leave, I believe, so that they could leave without me. I was having issues with one person at the time; now, it looked like no one was willing to support me, someone who needed extra assistance due to my spinal surgeries all those years before. I was shocked as this had never happened before; I had always been included in all of our outings in years past.
I cried all the way home that afternoon. I came into the house, and sat at my kitchen table. I lay my head on my folded arms, and let the flood of emotions burst forth, emotions that had built up in recent months.
I don't remember hearing Jeff come in; he didn't speak at all. I still had my head on my arms when I felt the warmth of his hand encircling mine. I looked up at him, and told him what had happened. He listened to me then just as he always does, with an open heart. At that moment, I knew that the only important thing was that my family loved me and that I was important to them. How others feel and think are out of my control.
Imagine! He did all that with a squeeze of his hand and a few thoughtful words.
I told Jeff on that Saturday morning, "That's pretty impressive stuff for a seventeen year old."
There were other stories, such as Jeff saving money and ordering Mother's Day baskets through his school, from the time he was in second grade, all the way through middle school. He loved to get up early, wait with the basket on his lap and surprise me with it when I came downstairs.
When he was still in preschool, and just learning to print, Walter and I received the following note in block letters, written in red crayon: "Hapy Navrsry. I wsh I hd mny to by you a prsnt." (He was still learning vowels.)
Jeff, I'd say this 'debt' can be marked "Paid in Full".
Editor's note: Donna Lowich is an;Information Specialist in the Foundation's Paralysis Resource Center. Donna was spinal cord injured over twenty years ago and has since dedicated her life to helping others living with paralysis.
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Editor's note: Donna Lowich is an Information Specialist in the Foundation's Paralysis Resource Center. Donna was spinal cord injured over twenty years ago and has since dedicated her life to helping others living with paralysis.
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